Saturday, November 04, 2006

greetings from north bondi

im sitting here
obviously......
im not sitting there....
the doodles are scribbling n drawing away
its meaningless for a father to say
his daughters are beautiful....
oh but my daughters are beautiful
oh vishnu, oh jesus
what an unexpected honour and treasure
to protect and guide these lovely female beings
money could not buy them
success could never replace them
is there ever a blinder man
than a father who loves his daughter?
well i been lucky in that dept, at least
5 lovely ninnies of my own to father
oh man if youre a father...?!
talk about responsibility......
i shouldnt talk.......
i am not the model of parental perfection...
im so relieved my kids arent scared of me..
like in the olden days (circa mary poppins)
when the kids were trotted out to their distant father
he inspects them briefly
the mother cues the hestitant kids what to say
the father is aloof, slightly impatient all the time
seems like a father has 2 basic options
stern distant patriach
or
dad, the human being
i guess my dad was the 2nd
in a time when there were plenty o the 1st type
my dad was a joker
he didnt wanna scare me
i'm glad the twills n doodles see me in a similar light
i guess
though sometimes
it would be nice to snap yer fingers
and get a little yessir, nossir
but how likely is that
unless im doing my block
but not just doing
block
well its a coldish rainyish morning here
marconi union playing in the corner
(thanks sirhc)
sculptures by the sea is on in november
again
it is as it suggests
all round the clifftop
framed against the blue pacific ocean
(today gun metal grey)
all kindsa "sculptures"
3 D art at any rate
free
when everyone makes an appearance
we'll have a walk up to the cliffs n see
this years sculptures by the sea
i dont mind if it rains
i just hope the sun dont come out
and it gets all steamy....
a lovely soft morning actually
oh so quiet here in this little street
its rained overnight
and its like some artist
has gone round and airbrushed all the green things
greener!
elephants ears n chinese shrubs jostle with weeds
the concrete cracks n weeds push through
ants n lizards tentative in the cool dawn
passionfruit tree w/ pink flowers
cars slumber in the street
a strange bird that lives only on nectar calls mounfully
a persian cat with bright yellow eyes looks on
n licks its lips
all the lovely trees bounce n move in the gentle wind
pigeons black against a white sky
while i type this doggerel
eve starr hangs over me
and now aurora
trying to interrupt me
im not trying to interrupt you says aurora
but carries on leaning on my shoulder
eve fiddles restlessly beside me
aurora reading over my shoulder as i write these words
and reading it all out aloud
in a stop start 7 year old way
i wonder if i type aurora is a gooseball...
yep she said it!
herself
can you believe that i actually gotta
run the gauntlet
in this fashion
while im trying to work
2 little girls
who know nothing about blogging
or my planet-wide audience
subtley but surely
strong-arming me in their own way
like minders
or thugs
trying to deter me from my porpoise
which is...
oh god
ive forgeotten

42 comments:

Fandorin said...

>its meaningless for a father to say
>his daughters are beautiful....

(but it's true...i know!)

12str said...

oh life itself....
pure magic...
if you let it be..
gooood.

Renee said...

remember sk...it's not work!!!
i love it when you mention your daughters, it always make me laugh
they really don't have any idea, do they?

my father tried to be like the first option,
but my sister and i broke him down with all the shit we pulled through the years
he didn't stand a chance
he's mellowed alot,
and i think that's what happened with you too!
my dad and i are quite close now, i'm probably the only person on earth that understands his strange ways!

i'd like to read your blogg in ten years
when all the boys come around,
and the girls start driving
they stay out real late
get drunk for the first time
have sex (i know you don't want to think about that!)
(my niece told us she was a lesbian at the ripe old age of 13, she now says she's bi)
what do you do?
we caught her kissing her girlfried, what the fuck??!!

as long as you support them and are involved in their lives
they'll come thru everything just fine :)

luv to you and the girls...nk too!!

John Garratt said...

My dad somehow faded away from type 1 and type 2. Type...huh?

John

Anonymous said...

What a nice way to start your weekend sk, you're little girls trying to drag their daddy away from the computer to have you all to themselves, so sweet. I'm sure you wouldn't want it any other way.
Have a beautiful day by the sea.

Love always,
Amanda
PS
I really enjoyed your gig last weekend, and hanging out with you afterwards was a real thrill for me, you're so funny and a really nice guy, I'll never forget it. (I better stop writing now before I get bagged for it, but I'll be reading everyday as always.)

Krissythegroupie said...

God, that was really sweet. I think I have to call my parents now...

CAPTAIN BEYOND said...

me hope me will get the pure chance to become a "father" one day...
Jon Jon

MarkM said...

Bringing up my daughter has changed me for the better in more ways than I could mention...my wife is now pregnant with our second...and we've just found out it's a BOY! I wonder how different it's all going to be this time round?? I've kinda loved bringing up a daddy's girl. (and was secretly hoping for another...)

And Amanda - glad to hear you had a good time meeting SK. And no one here should bag you for that...I'm proud of my bouts of musical geekdom and moments of fan induced dagginess - you should be too! ;-)

CeciliaGin said...

My dad still thinks I'm beautiful, oh he doesn't tell me, but I know he does...he HAS to it's in the contract!
Cee

ron said...

Steve... Sounds like you're having a good parental morning over there. I'm typing this as my older son (9) and I are nursing nasty head colds, while younger son (5) is watching some Spiderman video. I can relate, have had that hovering/over the shoulder experience many times. What am I trying to say? Dunno really... between the stuffed head and wine, it's just spew. But I like these blogs when you give glimpses into the everyday stuff that we all live. It's put a smile on my face.

Ron

ps - made the big drive from Guelph Ontario to Detroit in August to see you guys, was definitely worth the drive- was a great night!

Anonymous said...

My father was very much the of the first type. My lesson from that was to be very much of the second type.

veleska1970 said...

oh~~!! this was a wonderful, sweet blog that makes your heart happy. i can't help but smile ear-to-ear while reading this. yeah, kids are always a distraction, but one that you don't mind. my daughter always interrupts and distracts me, and i don't mind. sometimes that distraction is like a rescue~~they're removing the stress and upset and pulling you back from the brink, so to speak.

one thing's for certain when you have children around~~you learn to slow down and don't sweat the small stuff.

you dad sounds like he was quite a guy. and for you to give yourself so lovingly for your daughters is something they'll always treasure. they are blessed to have you.

thanks for today's entry. lotza love....

dig said...

What a beautiful life and that you are aware and appreciate it is awesome, cos some people who have everything just don't.

limebeaver said...

luvverly blog Steve,
did you by chance see the 'earth from above' photo exhibition at birrarung marr in melbourne when you were in town ?
it's gorgeous, all these giant photos of the, well, earth from above, it gives a great sense of how small we are and how fragile this globo is. Dunno how long it is on for, but i would highly recommend it...

limebeaver said...

luvverly blog Steve,
did you by chance see the 'earth from above' photo exhibition at birrarung marr in melbourne when you were in town ?
it's gorgeous, all these giant photos of the, well, earth from above, it gives a great sense of how small we are and how fragile this globo is. Dunno how long it is on for, but i would highly recommend it...

calling down baal and zeus said...

it is good to see dr. kildaire that you understand...bout your children..
our father was more like a leaf than a tree when it came to stickin around n understanding and is only now starting to realise the time has slipped.

damien said...

Lovely blog today, SK. I've said it before, but it's these little glimpses into the day to day world of the Kilbey family that I enjoy reading the most.

The picture of you "doing your block" at the kids made me smile. The idea of you as cranky dad ripping the kids into gear is so opposite to your image as cool and aloof rock "artiste".

I dunno. There's something sweet and funny about that.

ambnt1 said...

Steven,

My dad's a type 1, so was his dad. I'm afraid if I have a kid I'll be another type 1. Type 2 is definitely better (human). Glad you are enjoying the Macaroni n'Cheese union, a couple of dudes from Manchester who landed a deal on Eno's "All saints" label. Perfect music for a rainy, melancholy day. Enjoy! P.S. More Oophoi on da way 2 U soon....

--Chris

n.p. David Sylvian, "Alchemy: An Index of Possibilities"

gareth,notts said...

have just been to halloween party at local,had such a laugh 'n' good time which was needed as the detachment you talked about the other day,i seem to suffer from a different type at the mo which means ive just lost the best thing thats ever happened to me!! i'd call this lost more than detachment really!but great blog and it must be the best feeling to have such great daughters,please dont completely jack in on nov 22nd,hey its the 9th anniversary of Hutch's death,don't take another ray of light from us too!!!

JJ said...

I like cloudy, cool and misty days. They're good for the soul, good for reflection. Suits my mood many times. I have a son, 16 now, but....candid admission here.....I really wanted a daughter. You know, a devoted little girl who would think that I maybe hung the moon. That was the fantasy, anyway. Five daughters! I've seen the two paintings of Eve and Aurora, but Scarlett and the Twillies - maybe more paintings on the way?

It's a beautiful Autumn here, fantastic colors on forests and trees. Enjoyed a fire last night with my lady. Funny kids came to the door trick-or-treating for Halloween, pumpkins glowing, leaves blowing. I love Autumn.

JJ

fergal said...

nice one sk
watch the weeds in the cracks
~

stealthblue said...

Like you need to be reminded...but if I may opine, you are a lucky man, Steve. BUT, it is that "Law of Attraction" thing; you've somehow, knowingly or not, attracted this lovely life, complete with music, a beautiful woman and youngins to look after the best you can. If you ask me, I'd say you are a model father...what all pappies should be like. I hope I can be like that someday...blessed like that I mean. Your girls will be, if they aren't already, very proud of their "old man" one day. I have no doubt that I will be a good, fun-loving dad to if it is willed so by "The Force". My dear dad, God bless him, is an amazing man. I was blessed with the # 2 model dad as well, extremely smart and painfully funny. He is gonna be the big 60 on Thanksgiving. Today is my mom's birthday as well, and if I may say, she is one beautiful, amazing, sweet woman. It is times like these that I realize just how blessed I already am. I have a beautiful, supportive wife and an amazing, loving family, music, lots o'dreams...and two rascally cats! :) This was a "nice" blog today, SK. Thank you for letting us "hang out" with you and your doodles. I feel like I kinda know your family in a way! I enjoy the visuals in my head as I read on this adorning, biographical, legendary, serial opus.

Lots of love and respect to you and the fam,
Ben V.

freddy mercurial said...

steven,
hiya.
sounds like a lovely morning with your girls in north bondi. hope the rest of the day was even better. i'm lucky to still have my dad around and he has some of the qualities (musician at heart) that you describe yer old man as having. speaking of, always loved the reference in warm spell. one of your lines that has (for some reason) always stuck with me over the years.

be good,
freddy=merc
northeast usa

p.s. no quacksilver content in this comment!

Anonymous said...

Karma will be kind to you SK. For all the time, effort, energy and love you've given us lucky bloggers, you will surely be rewarded.

From one earth sign to another, you release my shackles and let me roar. Thank you for your generosity of spirit. You will be missed by so many.

But we can't have you getting RSI in that precious hand of yours, that's fer sure.

Hey Mr. Bass man, play a song for me. In the jingle jangle morning I'll come following you.

Love
Lady Di

Anonymous said...

Karma will be kind to you SK. For all the time, effort, energy and love you've given us lucky bloggers, you will surely be rewarded.

From one earth sign to another, you release my shackles and let me soar. Thank you for your generosity of spirit. You will be missed by so many.

But we can't have you getting RSI in that precious hand of yours, that's fer sure.

Hey Mr. Bass man, play a song for me. In the jingle jangle morning I'll come following you.

Love
Lady Di

Anonymous said...

some times you hit the nail on the head in a different manner than you have done before. nice essence to that one. you may grind for quite some time but you often find the gold was right beside you all along.

daniel 27, 14 said...

A nice one to get this saturday started. Trying to type this with my 3-year old son pushing me away from the mac. He wants me to build a swimming pool. Well, that may take the rest of the day...

lily said...

SK,

I think Aurora gets her gooseballness from her father. I mean that in the most loving way possible! =)

Though you may not see yourself as a "model" parent, the fact that you're there with them, having fun with them, swimming with them, helping nurture their creativity, etc. says otherwise. Take it from someone who never really had parents, you're doing fine. Have a lovely weekend!

lily

davem said...

Nice one SK.
Hi to your Daughters from middle England - Tolkien country. I only live 3 miles away from Moseley bog (which is supposedly Middle Earth)& it isn't anything like the films.............
I reconverted an old friend to the wonders of The Choiche last night. He had stopped listening at GAF but he was bowled over by UTLC.
Enjoy the weekend.
Love you more,

Dave M

captainmission said...

Very cute...

I know you don't like being recommended stuff... advice and all that... but i hope you take this in the spirit it's given.

There's a fantastic story called 'his dark materials' that i read to my son, it's my fave book and now his, and i'm sure that your beautiful children would love it being read to them as well.
I always felt that if ever they make it a film you would be perfect for Lord Asriel.
anyways i really enjoyed your blog this morning :)

public savant said...

You've forgotten your porpoise? Here, allow me to remind you: cough up those public service chronicles you promised some time ago, or at the very least some more canberra-flavoured a la recherche du temps perdu...

Anonymous said...

very nice work sk. your stature surely but steadily grows, nearly ready to meet your ego!

Anonymous said...

Hawkwind tonight on ABC2 in Australia, on 'Studio 22'.

eek said...

i am not the model of parental perfection...

Of course you aren't. I have yet to meet anyone who is. The people who are good at anything simply do the best they can at the time. I think the imperfect parent -- as long as there is love and care -- can actually be a better influence than the supposedly perfect one. Think about it. If a child never sees a parent make any errors, that child also never sees that parent learn from and correct those mistakes. A person afraid to make mistakes because he/she doesn't know how to deal with and correct them is never really able to develop.

I think it's obvious you adore your girls and I'm sure they are well aware of it. That will set them up far better than the "snap yer fingers and get a little yessir, nossir" approach. Besides, as soon as you leave the room after the latter the kids will go "yeah, right" and will do whatever the hell they please. (Trust me on that one. ;-) )

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
jj, funny you should ask this:

I've seen the two paintings of Eve and Aurora, but Scarlett and the Twillies - maybe more paintings on the way?

As soon as some slacker -- that would be me -- gets moving there will be a new painting of Scarlet (and her daddy) up on the SK art site. Should be sometime later today.

Some other very cool paintings will be going up then too. :-)

Adrakk said...

re: Diamond Dogs...the other day

'fleas the size of rats and rats the size of cats'
that intro to the album has always freaked me out a touch!

Anonymous said...

That time when you were walking on a less trodden path in between the highway and the hotel. One of the little ones was in your thoughts. She’s yours she’s her own. Tears for all that. An aching for somebody else and for self. The armour was no more briefly you and one and all were seamless. A touch of understanding what the sages have tought us again and again throughout time. seamless.

Melquiades said...

steve. hello. it's 1:06pm kaisser time
I'm feeling complete right now. I wish you were here. oh my, the sun rises and I am indifferent to this cyles that has bred us. We certainly are not night kind, but that's ok. there's nothing like a sleep before midnight to clear your head.

Is there any possibility - if I were to venture south of the equator - good ol queen's land I think I'd fit in in the desert and Perth/ where where seasons collide - you'd be interested in collaborating and getting lost on another venture?

I am willing and able at this time to relocate. I really love to create/ it's what I was meant to do and time couldn't be better. Honestly, Any of the brothers K I would love to create with. Honestly. I need like-minded people and I'm not finding it here in the states. check my music out. It has the drive,
it just needs some direction.

I'm sure John Howard wouldn't mind some more of the arts too

that's what I love about Australia. they still have the aboriginal and elephant ear plant - all the exotics thriving in your neighbors yard.

Tony Pucci said...

sounds like you're
a pretty lucky guy

nickfiction said...

some great images conveyed here. i felt like i was " almost with you " in the room . Just kidding . a good read, how's the spring summer developing for you there? we just got killed with winter/ Nick

don joe said...

Nice day for you mate..

Nice gag with Aurora too!

Yeah, nice imagery. Sounds like a tranquil part of the city to be immersed in.

Keep enjoying life.

ML,
don joe

Bubbles, Ink. said...

fantastic.
i, too, am trying to guide daughters through all this muck and war and loveliness.
and i, too, love when you post something like this to remind us we're not alone in the comedy or tragedy.

cheers.

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